Bug in a Jar

Antennas above my eyes

Sense every feeling nearby

Without even wanting to, 

I empathize.

There is a path through the grass

I fall in love with everything I pass

A barrier falls between us

I can still see the thing I want

But can’t get close enough to keep it

Beating fists against the glass

Fogging up the view with my breath

Convinced my desire will bring my death

Screaming as I slide away

From the shining thing

That made me feel okay.

So obviously out of my reach

Can’t believe it’s not meant for me

The cosmos command I be

Pure from all things unholy

Now I sit on display in a cage

Unable to remember

If I put myself here

Or did a hand from the sky 

                                           deliver my fate?

Is everyone far away

 because of something I did

Like when I felt everything as my own?

There’s room to think when I’m

                                                     alone

I’m starting to get things done

Remember who I was before all the distraction

Decompose 

                      and 

                                metamorphosize

Accept the sharp truths I’ve come to realize

About the length of other people’s love

                                                          never    being  quite     enough

     Light     breaks     in 

Not a cage but a chrysalis

A feeling in my chest

Like I just cried but all the time

Brings me closer to myself 

Bright wings unlike anything I’ve ever seen

They’re carrying me

To the person I’ve always wanted to be

Soaring towards clouds

I forget everything on the ground