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    Melanie was secretly relieved when her father’s pick up truck broke down in the middle of Main street, because last time it was in the shop, about three weeks ago, the mechanic had said one more break down would be the end of it. The cold December air nipped at her nose as she sat patiently on a bench, holding her five year old twin brothers, Arlo and Eli. She whispered promises of hot cocoa and Christmas movies, which were slightly beyond her powers at eleven years old, but worked to distract the hyperactive little boys tugging on her arms. Eventually, the tow truck arrived and carried them all home. Melanie listened as her parents planned to visit the car dealership the following day, and felt another wave of relief wash over her. 

    For her entire life, her family had only owned a rickety red truck with questionable brakes and strained steering. The seat belts had long lacked any retractable qualities and were about as useful as noodles for keeping a person secure. On one rainy day a year ago, Melanie had clutched her limp seat belt in the back seat as the car slid into a muddy ditch, narrowly missing a tree. Other times, she had watched out the back window and waved her hands frantically at the oncoming car who couldn’t tell they were slowing down because the back brake lights were out. She’d sat on the side of the road countless times as the engine vomited smoke and her father tried for hours to find the problem. It was prime time for the family to upgrade to a nice, reliable vehicle that would be neither an embarrassment nor safety hazard. 

    The next day, Melanie watched with horror from the front window as a bulky, boxy monstrosity of a car lurched into her driveway. She bolted outside, desperate to deny that her parents would blow their one chance to upgrade their lives to something responsible and normal. 

    “What is that?” she demanded frantically.

    “We got a great deal,” her father assured her, wrapping his arm around her mother, who looked quite pleased. 

    It was unlike anything Melanie had ever seen: angular and squat with a flimsy antennae reaching to heaven above. The black paint shone free of scratches or dents, which was the only positive Melanie could glean from the exterior. The stench of motor oil was thick like a fog and was only slightly dulled within the car by the aroma of cheap leather. The ancient dashboard was complete with an analog clock and cassette player. The seat belts all seemed to function, but the narrow back seat promised a lifetime of squishing between her brothers. Melanie’s hopes of a sleek SUV or minivan faded away as her parents admired their new purchase with satisfaction. 

    The family piled in their new automobile for a joyride. The brakes squealed sharply but functioned decently, even with the road being slippery with snow. Her mother tried to find a radio station, but every turn of the knob produced a steady stream of static. Arlo and Eli wiggled endlessly on either side of Melanie, eventually causing their seat belts to lock. As Melanie practiced the box breathing technique the school counselor had taught her, she began to taste leather on her tongue.

    When the family home finally came into view through the windshield, Melanie was squirming almost as much as her little brothers. Just before the tires touched the driveway, a little boy appeared before the bumper. Her father didn’t seem to see him as he rolled forward, causing Melanie to scream at the top of her lungs. A horrible screech erupted as her father slammed on the brakes and everyone began shouting. Melanie climbed over Arlo and burst out of the vehicle. When her feet hit the pavement, the driveway was empty. There was no one in sight.

    “Melanie, don’t ever do that!” her mother started as her parents leapt out of the car.

    “What on earth were you yelling about?” her father roared. 

    “There was a little boy in the driveway, didn’t you see him?” Melanie insisted, tears building in her eyes.

    Her parents exchanged concerned glances and softened.

    “There was no one in the driveway, honey,” her father said.

    “Yes there was, I saw him!” Melanie continued.

    “Were you looking at your brother, perhaps?” her mother suggested.

    “No, it wasn’t anyone I had seen before,” Melanie said, realizing she was not being believed.

    “Let’s go inside, maybe you are tired and need some quiet time,” her mother said.

    That night, Melanie dreamed she was in the backseat of the car again, with her brother’s on either side. The car was speeding down the road, but it took a moment for her to realize there was no one driving. In a panic, she scrambled towards the front seat, which stretched farther away from her as she reached for it. Eventually she managed to land in the driver’s seat, but then her feet couldn’t reach the pedals and she could barely see over the dashboard. With oncoming traffic barreling towards her, she desperately jerked the wheel left and right, but the car refused to turn. Melanie woke up with her heart pounding and her throat tight like she’d been crying. She waited to see if someone would come check on her, but the silent house absorbed the nightmare into the darkness, like it never existed.

    In the morning, Melanie refused to get in the car for school. Her parents allowed her to walk to school since it was only a mile away and that’s what she did in the warmer months anyway. As the stinky black clunker barreled past her, Arlo and Eli stuck their tongues out at her through the window. She stuck out her tongue back at them, but they were already gone. The cold air devoured the car’s odor, and Melanie felt triumphant as she navigated the icy sidewalk. 

    Glittering snow clinging to the bare tree branches dazzled against the bright blue sky. It always made her think of a coral reef when the trees were like that, and since she was alone, she pretended she was a fish in an aquarium. Like a freestyle swimmer, Melanie rotated her arms through the air. She pushed off one foot and flew through the air for a moment, before landing on a piece of ice, twisting her ankle, hitting her head and losing consciousness.

    Before she opened her eyes, she could smell the pungent leather and wanted to cry. Heavy pain throbbed in her foot and head. Melanie slowly opened her eyes as she realized she was laying down in the backseat. Her father must have dropped her brothers off at school and saw her on his way back. She felt incredibly sad, until she focused her eyes towards the roof of the car and saw the little boy who had been in the driveway staring at her. 

    He floated up against the roof, bobbing along with the movements of the car. He was slightly transparent and sepia toned, wearing brown overalls and a white shirt, no shoes. Melanie guessed he was about seven or eight. A strange feeling of comfort settled over her, washing away the anxiety that stuck to her always like dirt. When was the last time she had been truly relaxed? The little boy stayed with her for the whole drive to the hospital. 

    Her ankle was x-rayed and deemed a hairline fracture. The doctor advised that she rest and use crutches if she needed to walk. The little boy was not in the car on the way home from the hospital. Melanie spent the rest of the day in a dreamless sleep. 

    Her parents decided to keep her out of school for the rest of the week. Melanie didn’t mind. She wanted to like school, but had difficulty making friends. The school counselor told her that kids would like her more if she didn’t try to boss them around all the time, but who would keep them from acting like total barbarians if not for her? 

    During the day, as her father worked from home in his office, Melanie played on her iPad until her eyes hurt. It wasn’t even time for lunch yet. She practiced walking with her crutches up and down the hallway. Eventually, she flopped on the couch and gazed out the window facing the street. The bright winter sun bounced off the snow, illuminating it to a blinding shine. Suddenly, two figures on the sidewalk appeared out of nowhere, snapping Melanie’s attention back to focus. 

    They appeared to be a mother and daughter pair, both wearing old fashioned dresses, walking with purpose down the sidewalk. Melanie gawked as they approached her family’s car in the driveway, and then leapt up, forgetting her injury completely. Like a watchdog, she ran out the front door to defend her home.

    “Hey! What are you doing?” Melanie shouted as the mother’s hand reached for the car door.

    The mother and daughter stared blankly at her as the pain in her ankle caught up to her and Melanie crumbled to the ground. She winced and clutched her foot, breathing hard through her teeth. The duo silently waited for her to be done. After a minute the piercing pain receded and Melanie looked up to notice that the woman and child were slightly transparent, like the little boy. 

    “Why are you here?” she gasped, struggling to her feet. She grabbed the rim of the car to pull herself up, surprised by the warmth of it. 

    The mother cocked her head, seemingly amused. 

    “Is it the car? You want to go in the car?” Melanie asked.

    The mother and daughter turned away from Melanie towards the car, as if waiting patiently. Melanie hobbled over and opened the door to the backseat. Without hesitation, they climbed in. Melanie shut the door behind them and climbed in the driver’s seat.

    “Who are you?” she asked, twisting around to look at her passengers. 

    When they continued staring at her blankly, Melanie said  “I can’t actually drive.” 

    The mother glanced at her pocketwatch. Melanie noticed it wasn’t ticking.

    “Alright, well, let’s see here,” Melanie sighed, facing forward and putting her hands on the steering wheel. “Mother and daughter, I’m guessing? I have a mother too, obviously, everyone has a mother. I don’t think my mother meant to be one, at least not for me. My parents had just graduated high school when I was born. They got lucky with me, though, I’m a good daughter to them. Last month, my mom was trying to make us pizza for dinner, and my little brothers would not stop screaming at her. I think they wanted to watch TV or something. I don’t even remember now.”

    As she spoke, Melanie’s memory filled her vision, like it was the road she was driving down. She explained how her mother’s face always crumpled like tissue paper before she started crying. The frozen pizza had crashed to the floor out of her mother’s hands, and Melanie wasn’t sure if it was on purpose or accident. Eli and Arlo had stopped screaming then, stunned and suddenly bored. Her mother left the room crying. Melanie had swept up the frozen pepperoni and shredded cheese bits before checking on her mother.

    “I just gave her a big hug and offered to make macaroni and cheese,” Melanie said. “My brothers can be such jerks, but they’re only five, so what do they know?” 

    Melanie glanced in the rearview mirror and saw the pair smiling at her. She’d never told anyone about that, not that she had anyone to tell in the first place. The day after it happened, her teacher had sent her to the counselor’s office because Melanie would not stop directing her classmates, and when they didn’t listen to her, she’d burst into tears. In the counselor’s office, she refused to talk about it, as if it were her secret to protect that her mother was human.

    “Everyone has bad days, that’s what the counselor said,” Melanie said as she focused away from the rearview mirror. When she looked back a moment later, the passengers were gone. Only then did she realize the car didn’t reek of old leather, instead she smelled whiffs of cinnamon, like Christmas. It felt light. 

    The next morning, Melanie skipped her iPad time and watched out the front window. Sure enough, a transparent sepia toned man waltzed down the sidewalk towards the car. Melanie grabbed one of her crutches and hobbled outside.

    “Hello, sir,” she greeted him.

    He wore dark pants with suspenders over a simple button up shirt. The man was quite large around the middle, with a friendly handle bar mustache on his round face. He nodded to her and let her open the door to the backseat. Once he was situated, Melanie climbed in the front.

    “How are you today?” Melanie asked, adjusting the rearview mirror to get a full view of her passenger. 

    The man smiled and nodded, but of course, said nothing.

    “Did this car used to be yours? Or was it a taxi?” Melanie asked as she placed her hands on the steering wheel.

    The man didn’t respond, but continued smiling pleasantly with a twinkle in his eye.

    “I suppose it says something good about this car, that people are returning to it from wherever you’re from. I would never go back to the car we had before this one. It was such an awful car. I never felt safe in it,” Melanie admitted, realizing that was the first time she’d spoken it out loud.

    “It was obvious though, right? I didn’t have to say it for everyone to know it was true. Kids shouldn’t be in a car like that. My dad should’ve known better,” Melanie continued, squeezing the steeringwheel until her knuckles turned white. 

    She checked the rearview mirror. The man’s face softened sympathetically. 

    “But I never told anyone. I just put up with it, until it was over,” Melanie sighed, relaxing against her seat. “I never saw the point in being honest about how I felt. The one time I was, it didn’t go well.

    “I was seven, it was summer,” Melanie started as her memory filled the windshield. “My dad had promised to take me to the lake that day, but he got busy and forgot. I kept telling him how badly I wanted to go, but he didn’t think it was a big deal.” 

    As she recounted the memory, she felt the tension build in her stomach the same as it had been that day, the powerless feeling of time passing. She’d wanted a summer like she saw in the movies, splashing in the water with friends laughing all around. Even when her father took her to the lake later in the summer, the experience didn’t live up to what Melanie had envisioned. She locked her disappointment away, embarrassed to have wanted something so unattainable.

    “It sounds silly now,” Melanie said. “But I never talked about it. I just thought that no one would care how I felt, so there was no point in bringing it up ever again.”

    The man met her gaze her in the mirror, his expression netural.

    “You’re not going to tell me I’m wrong, are you?” Melanie asked. “You’re not going to say I’m a brat or I should get over it? I always thought if I held down my feelings, they would just go away.” 

    For the first time, Melanie realized that no one had actually ever said those things to her. She had been telling it to herself all along. Letting go of the steering wheel, her hands fell heavily to her lap. Tears silently landed in her palms and the knots in her stomach melted away. When she looked in the backseat, her passenger was gone, leaving behind the smell of vanilla and tobacco. Melanie let herself cry some more. 

    The next day, when Melanie checked out the front window, she saw a line of transparent visitors on the sidewalk heading towards the car. She rushed out as quickly as she could. One by one, she opened the door for them, hopped in the driver’s seat, and unloaded stories she had never told anyone. As Melanie confessed to her nonjudgemental audience, she felt safer than she ever had in her life. 

    She told one passenger about watching her grandpa fall right in front of her when she was five. Blood had poured out his face and she had no idea what to do, so she just sat there and cried until her parents found them. She told the next passenger about the only friend she’d ever had, a neighbor girl her same age. Melanie refused to cry when the girl moved away, even though she really wanted to. The girl hadn’t said goodbye, so why should Melanie be sad about someone who doesn’t say goodbye? She told the next passenger about all the things her brothers did that drove her crazy, and how she tried not to complain because she was their older sister and she was supposed to take care of them, but sometimes she thought her life would be easier without them. 

    With each new guest, Melanie dug up a new story from her life. She didn’t realize how much she had buried within her. Some of the things she told didn’t sound so bad after they were said out loud, like her dislike of the brussel sprout casserole her mother always made or how she wished she were better at math but was afraid to ask for help because she didn’t want to seem dumb. These things had been shoved down out of habit. As the stories flowed out, the emotions they carried evaporated effortlessly, like the passengers passing through the seat behind her. Melanie never realized how tightly she’d been holding on to her pain until she let it all go. 

    By sunset, the line on the sidewalk had dwindled to one last girl. 

    “Just you? No adult?” Melanie asked. 

    The girl hopped in the backseat without responding.

    “You look like my age,” Melanie commented as she resumed her post in the driver’s seat. “I’ve been talking about myself all this time, and I have to admit, it’s been nice, but I should probably ask you some questions too, right?” 

    Melanie turned around and leaned towards the girl, noticing her dimples like crescent moons.

    “Does everyone know something I don’t?” Melanie whispered. “I’ve been afraid to ask, but I’m just pretending all the time. I really don’t know what’s going on, and I’m scared that if I tell someone, they’ll think awful things about me.”

    Melanie found herself climbing into the backseat next to the girl, who watched her with a soft smile. 

    “I just want people to like me,” Melanie admitted quietly. “And I want someone to protect me, so I’ve tried to be that for other people, but no one seems to appreciate it.” 

    The little girl reached out her hand across the seat. Melanie slid her hand over, embracing the cool sensation as their fingers crossed. It felt like mist in the early morning, like the freshness of a new day.

    Melanie woke up to her father tapping on the window. She didn’t realize she had fallen asleep in the backseat.

    “Honey, I’ve been looking for you,” her father said as he opened the car door. 

    “Sorry,” Melanie mumbled groggily.

    “It’s ok. I’m glad you’re enjoying the car, finally,” her father said, picking her up in his arms. Melanie couldn’t remember the last time her father carried her like that, so she leaned into his chest and inhaled his comforting scent of laundry soap and pine. 

    Melanie’s doctor allowed her to return to school the following week as long as her foot was in a cast and she used her crutches.

    “What happened to your foot?” one boy in her class asked her. 

    This classmate had never spoken to Melanie before, except to tell her to buzz off when she tried to boss him around.

    “I slipped on some ice,” Melanie said.

    “Cool! Can I sign your cast?” he asked.

    “Sure,” Melanie agreed with pleasant surprise.

    Other classmates clustered towards her curiously, asking questions about her injury. Melanie had never received so much positive attention from her peers, a stark contrast to the usual interactions of orders and refusals. They marveled at her ability to use the crutches and asked to try for themselves. Melanie allowed it, and they returned her crutches without her having to ask. A few girls complimented the royal blue color of the cast, and signed their names with hearts and smiley faces. 

    At recess, Melanie was unsure what to do with herself. Usually she stalked around the playground, hunting for someone to scold. However, now her movements were limited, and she didn’t feel like yelling at anyone. 

    “Hey, Melanie! Do you want to come sit in the grass with us? We’re making daisy chains,” a girl in her class offered. 

    “Sure,” Melanie agreed with a smile. 

    The girl helped Melanie over to where her friends were sitting in the grass. The three other girls welcomed her with big smiles as she approached. As they taught her how to tie the stems together, Melanie asked them questions about themselves. She learned that two of them liked the same iPad games that she did, and they talked and joked about it until the bell rang. On the walk back to the school building, the girls slowed their pace and linked arms so as not to leave Melanie behind. 

    January 8, 2025
    coming of age, creative writing, elementary, family, Fiction, growth, kids, love, magic, magical realism, original writing, short story

  • Fiction: The Burning

    [originally published in decomp journal] [revised 2024]

    As she crammed her lunchbox amongst the others in the teacher’s lounge refrigerator, Lauret thought about how today was Jacob’s last day. As she walked past walls decorated with colorful paper wolves made by first graders, she thought about how, in the beginning of the year, Jacob had run away from her down that same hallway. When she heard “Miss A!” from small voices and “Good morning” from her coworkers, she wanted to respond with “Who is going to help him?” and “Why not wait until the end of the school year, at least?”, but instead she distributed the expected hugs and smiles.

    On the playground, the early morning air nipped at her nose. As usual, several kids huddled near her; everyone shivering together. The playground slowly filled with life as the children trickled into school, many still half asleep with bed heads, others already screaming and racing like meteors. Lauret watched them all passively, one eye focused on whichever child had managed to win her attention for that moment. Everything was a balancing act. Lauret juggled her thoughts about Jacob in the back of her mind, covering them with an easy smile. At her elbow, seven-year-old Violet appeared wordlessly, eyes down. Lauret placed her hand on her shoulder and the two began shuffling away from the group. Some of the kids tried to follow, but Lauret shooed them away. 

    “How are you?” Lauret asked.

    Violet pointed her thumb down.

    “Yeah, I get that,” Lauret sighed.

    “It’s Jacob’s last day,” Violet said, looking up at Lauret with big brown eyes.

    “I know. How do you think he’s going to be?” Lauret asked.

    “Not good,” Violet said, shaking her head and swishing her thick ponytail. 

    “I know,” Lauret agreed. 

    The bell screeched over their heads, but they didn’t flinch. Lauret squeezed Violet’s shoulders and walked with her to line up with the rest of her second grade class.

    An hour and a half later, Lauret’s reading intervention group was interrupted by a call from the office summoning her to the front of the school. The Special Education teacher, to whom Lauret was an aide, stepped up from her desk to continue the lesson. 

    As Lauret approached the main entrance to school, she saw the principal holding the door open, Jacob’s mother standing in the doorway, and the school secretary chasing Jacob around the front lawn. The principal’s and Jacob’s mother’s faces lit up in relief when they spotted Lauret approaching. Already smiling, Lauret stepped between them and called out in one melodious note, “Jacob!” 

    Jacob continued to soar like an eagle, arms out, head low. He swooped in one victory arc before gliding to her side and calmly following her into school. 

    “How are you?” Lauret asked as they passed the colorful wolves.

    “Bad,” Jacob answered, bobbing his head as he walked.

    “We’re going to have a great last day, alright?” Lauret tried.

    Jacob shrugged, “Maybe.”

    Lauret delivered him to his classroom, exchanging a knowing glance with his teacher, Mrs. Davidson, as she closed the door. Jacob slid silently into his seat next to Violet, who smiled at him over her shoulder. Jacob smiled back, not because he felt like smiling, but because he was always happy to see Violet. As their teacher droned on at the front of the class, Jacob secretly poked Violet with whatever he could find. Violet was always patient with Jacob, and today she savored his ability to pull her away from the boring moments. She had a lot of friends, but none like Jacob, none who made her feel like there was another world to escape into. 

    At recess, Jacob wanted to play tag. Most kids were tired of the old game, but almost every day Jacob tried to elect someone to chase him around the playground. Most days his peers said no and Jacob abandoned his efforts altogether, but everyone knew that today was his last day. Violet’s tennis shoes bit into the pavement as she raced after Jacob, reaching out to him, the hood of his coat just beyond her fingertips. Jacob hid behind Lauret, who stood in the middle of the field, expressionless behind black sunglasses.

    “Miss A! Miss A!” Jacob sang, tugging on her arm to break her poker face. 

    “Jacob! Jacob!” Lauret responded, unable to resist a smile. 

    Jacob tossed his head back and cackled. Lauret beamed down at him as Violet skidded to a stop, followed by several of her classmates.

    “Ok! Go play!” Lauret commanded, gently pushing Jacob towards the swarm of second graders.

    Jacob took off with Violet at his side.

    “Why is today your last day, Jacob?” a classmate named Kyler asked. He was smaller than the rest of his classmates, but never let that slow him down.

    Jacob scrunched his face, stuck out his tongue and then ran away. 

    “He’s going to live with his dad. His mom lost the custody battle,” Violet explained before taking off after Jacob.

    Jacob’s breath pounded through him as he ran. Everything was going to change, and he hated change. He thought about how his dad treated him like he was normal, even though his mom never did. Things his mother let him get away with, like his tantrums or hyperactivity, his dad refused to tolerate. The caseworker said the same thing in the courtroom, as if it was his mom’s fault that Jacob never felt like he belonged anywhere he went. Sometimes when he was with Violet he felt better, like someone actually understood him, or at the least didn’t mind if they couldn’t. 

    “I don’t want to go,” Jacob said to Violet as she approached him. 

    “We can still get married, when we’re older,” Violet offered.

    “I know. We will. I don’t like my dad, though.”

    “Yes you do. You miss him all the time.”

    “But now I’m never going to see my mom!” 

    Behind them, Lauret blew her whistle and all the second graders rushed back to her. Kyler had captured Lauret’s attention for a rare moment. She smiled warmly down at him, nodding along. Kyler was a kid she worked with often, but since he was in the same class as Jacob, a lot of Kyler’s support was sacrificed for Jacob’s needs. Lauret thought about this often. Mrs. Davidson told her not to feel guilty about it, but she couldn’t help it. Lauret was young enough to believe she could still save them all. 

    When Jacob saw Lauret talking with Kyler, he broke into a run. 

    “My Miss A! Mine!” he screamed as he ran into Kyler as hard as he could, pushing him to the ground. 

    Lauret gasped and checked to see if Kyler was hurt. Jacob’s fists shook at his sides as his face filled pink. Then he turned and sprinted across the field. Lauret inhaled deeply. She instructed Violet to stay with the dazed Kyler and took off after Jacob.

    Across the field, Jacob paced. He knew better than to push Kyler, he knew Miss A knew it too. No one seemed to care what he wanted; no one was looking out for him, why should he? So what if he got in trouble? Hot energy pulsed through him, making his hands and face itch. 

    “Jacob! Come tear out grass!” Lauret called.

    He turned around and saw Miss A sitting in the middle of the field. He rushed to her side and dove to the ground, gripping fistfuls of grass and sending clumps of dirt into the air like fireworks. In the past, when Jacob’s emotions were beyond his control, ripping grass calmed him. But today, Lauret watched his hands race to the ground faster and faster, like he didn’t know how to stop. It wasn’t enough. He wanted to rip the whole world apart just so he could put it back together in a way that made sense.

    “Jacob!” he heard Miss A shout.

    “What?” he snapped, turning to her, noticing a fracture in her usually calm expression.

    “I’ve been saying your name,” Lauret said. “Let’s do some deep breaths.”

    “No!” Jacob shouted, throwing the last handful of grass towards the sky. “I don’t want to take deep breaths! I can’t do it! I can’t!” 

    “Jacob-” 

    “NO!” he screamed, slamming his fists into the ground so hard the earth rippled beneath them. 

    Jacob pounded into the ground, shaking the whole field like waves in the ocean. From his red face, he released a scream so intense that Lauret had to cover her ears. She was fully aware that the power of this kid’s emotions was nothing short of extraordinary. 

    “Jacob, please,” Lauret tried. “It’s going to be ok. I promise you.”

    “Oh I’ve heard that one before!” Jacob shrieked, eyes wide. “And you know what? It’s never true. It’s never ok! Bad things always happen, just when things start to get good. So don’t promise me anything!” 

    “Jacob-”

    “Go away!”

    Lauret glanced at the grass around Jacob’s feet. Smoke rose from his soles. She smelled the beginning of the burning. 

    “Jacob…”

    A thin ring of fire spread from beneath him. A black circle of grew outwards from his feet as flames ate up the dry grass. 

    “Deep breath, Jacob, please,” Lauret tried, inhaling deeply.

    “Panic!” Jacob screeched.

    He sprinted across the field, leaving a trail of black foot prints outlined in livid red sparks. Flames erupted from every step as he ran across the field. The torched patches of his footprints merged together into a low line of orange, devouring the dry grass. Jacob collapsed with wails of agony as the fire closed around him. With each cry, the fire flared taller, reaching for the sky like a tower. He was barely aware of the smoke and heat, it was nothing compared to the meltdown in his mind. His world was ending either way, and he would take down everything with him. 

    With her jacket pressed to ground, Lauret chased after Jacob, smothering the smoldering grass as quickly as she could. The de-escalation trainings provided by the school didn’t prepare her for this, because in real life, when all hell breaks loose and a child is caged in their own blaze, all that’s left is one’s own human instinct. Lauret’s instinct screamed at her to save the child, no matter if she got hurt in the process.

    Without hesitation, Lauret wrapped her jacket around her face, tying the arms tightly behind her head, preparing to barrel through the fire and come out the other side with Jacob. She pressed her feet into the earth, ready to leap, when she heard someone screaming her name. 

    Out of the school burst Mrs. Davidson waving a fire extinguisher. 

    “Cover your face!” Mrs. Davidson shouted. 

    Lauret’s fingers had barely crossed her eyes when she smelled the chemical powder. White foam doused the flames until the field resembled a fresh layer of snow.

    “Are you alright?” Mrs. Davidson gasped.

    Lauret nodded and hurried over to Jacob.

    At the center of the now white circle, almost six feet across, Jacob held himself in fetal poistion. He was untouched by his disaster, unlike Lauret whose face was powdered with ash and her hair singed. As he cried into his knees, Lauret and Mrs. Davidson put their hands on his back. Slowly he lifted his face to them, rosy cheeks glowing with tears. 

    “I’m sorry,” Jacob whispered.

    “It’s ok, Jacob,” Mrs. Davidson promised.

    “It’s ok,” Lauret agreed. 

    “Can I stay with Miss A for a bit?” Jacob asked.

    “Jacob! Jacob! Are you alright?” Violet called as she ran up behind them, holding a bottle of water in her hand.

    “Violet, I told you to stay in class!” Mrs. Davidson scolded.

    Violet ignored her and went up to Jacob. They looked at each other and then to Lauret.

    “I told the teacher there was a fire,” Violet said.

    “How did you know?” Lauret asked.

    “I smelled the smoke,” Violet explained. “I know what it means.”

    Mrs. Davidson nodded wearily.

    “I’ll go call Jacob’s mom. C’mon Violet,” Mrs. Davidson said. “Let’s let them cool off.”

    Lauret released an involuntary laugh and Mrs. Davidson winked. Violet followed after her teacher, looking back at her friends before reentering the school.

    “It looks like a lollipop,” Lauret said, pointing at the long trail of burnt grass that led to the burnt circle.

    “Lollipop burnt flavor,” Jacob laughed.

    “Uh oh, someone burned my lollipop,” joked Lauret.

    “Hey, why did you burn my lollipop?” Jacob squealed.

    The two continued bantering as they walked away and sat on a bench under a large tree, out of sight of the field. A large yellow school bus pulled into the parking lot, prematurely ready to fill with children. Birds chirped above them, flitting from branch to branch. Jacob looked up at the tree. An airplane cut through the blue sky, grumbling distantly. Calm cascaded around them.

    “It sounds like summer,” Jacob observed.

    Of all the things to say, Lauret thought. 

    She watched him gaze into the distance with clear eyes, still expecting him to burst into tears and cling to her. His face was contemplative now, causing him to look older than his seven years of age. Lauret tried to think of something to say to bring closure to their journey together, but she was too exhausted to think. They sat in silence, letting the sounds of summer twinkle around them, a reminder that the world kept turning through it all.

    December 18, 2024
    autism, creative writing, elementary, kids, love, magic, magical realism, neurodivergent, original writing, short story, special education

  • Fiction: Miss A

    [originally published in The Grey Rock Review] [revised 2024]

    The concrete warmed the soles of my bare feet as I stood on the sidewalk, staring with wonder. We were all playing outside that day, so we all saw when the police cruiser pulled up silently to Miss A’s house. 

    “Where is she going, Janie?” my six-year-old brother, Clyde, asked me.

    “She won’t be far,” I replied.

     Six of us gathered in my driveway, barefoot and squinting in the sunlight, chapped lips hanging open with mouths of missing teeth, skinny limbs sticking out of t-shirts and shorts. Miss A walked out with her head up, a police officer holding both her arms behind her back with one hand. It was inevitable that someone would be arrested, with the way the summer heat cooked everyone’s brains. 

    It all started with the street we lived on. The road was marked with potholes that we kids had learned to dodge while chasing each other like swallows diving through the air. There were six of us who were kids at the same time. My little brother and I lived in the only house with a tree in the front yard. Next door lived the seven year old twins, Annalise and Jason, at the only house with a basketball hoop. Across the street was little five year old Philip Jr., who had nothing material to offer, but always did what we dared him to do. Lastly, at the end of the block, was curly-haired, ever sunburned Sanders Kurt, who was ten years old like me and led us all through grand imaginary adventures in places far away from our decrepit neighborhood. As the oldest girl in the bunch, I looked after these kids the way their mothers should have but didn’t.

     Things hadn’t changed in a long time. Each and every house hid darkness behind its doors. People mostly knew the truth about their neighbors, but everyone was too busy concealing their own secrets to worry about anyone else, trusting each other like a bad habit. It was like every neighbor had a loaded gun pointed at another, if one went down, the entire neighborhood would go down with them. That’s why no one said anything when Philip Jr.’s front tooth rotted out; or when Clyde and I would sit on the curb in front of our house as our parents screamed at each other inside; or when Sanders showed up to school with a busted lip, or a black eye, or both. There should’ve been a line when it came to the children. 

    Miss A moved in across the street on the hottest day of July. We kids watched from the safety of the oak tree in my front yard as she unloaded her moving truck without any help. Never once did she show signs of strain or fatigue. Her calm was enchanting. However, we stayed behind the oak tree. Being wary of adults was our means to survival. 

    It was Sanders who suggested we go to meet her. Logically, I was reluctant to stray too close to a stranger, but I too felt the urge to be near her. The other kids seemed drawn to her as well. For no apparent reason, throughout the days after she moved in, each of us kept checking over our shoulder at her house. Every time one kid stopped to look over at it, a wave of heads turned. Our expansive imaginations fueled our ravenous curiosity. Philip Jr. said she must be a witch or an angel. The twins thought she was from a far off country, because why else would she move into a neighborhood like this except by accident? Sanders thought she seemed harmless. I thought she seemed lonely. 

    After eight days of sitting around, stealing glances and inventing legends, my curiosity got the best of me. I decided to cross the street. The summer heat pelted me the moment I stepped out from underneath the shade of the oak tree. Sanders crossed with me, bouncing with excitement in each step. He was always the more optimistic one. The four remaining children waited a few seconds before scurrying after us, not wanting to miss any of the action. For a moment, the six of us just stood together on her small porch step. The cement was so cool compared to the river of asphalt we had just crossed. Finally, I pressed my pointer finger into the doorbell. 

    The door flew open like a gust of wind blew through it. Our new neighbor stood before us, wearing a white kimono and no shoes. She held out her arms, not asking for a physical embrace, but like a preacher before a sermon. We were speechless. Later when the six of us would be questioned by the police, we would each remember her face differently. For me, I thought her face was young and soft, like a sweet older sister. Sanders said she was very old, like his grandma who had passed years ago. Clyde thought she looked like our mom, back before Dad left and her eyes grew heavy. Philip Jr. said she looked just like his teacher, who had caramel-colored skin, but the rest of us were sure her skin was as pale as our own. Annalise and Jason both agreed that she looked like me, with light freckles and dark brown hair. However, when we were meeting her, I don’t think any of us were really paying attention to her face. 

    “Hello little ones,” she said with a voice like a bird’s song. “My name is Miss A. What are your names?”

    And because we were not afraid, we told her. 

    “Would you like to play in my front yard?” she asked. 

    The one thing we could all agree on about her appearance was the way her soft gray eyes sparkled every time she spoke. 

    In the front yard, she brought out buckets of soapy water and strings tied in loops. She bent forward like a swan and showed us how to dip the strings in the buckets so that the circles shimmered. Then she ran with the wind to birth the bubbles. I watched as the faces of the little kids lit with joy. Sander’s ocean blue eyes glazed with hope before he winked at me and dove into the bubbly fun.

     Miss A brought out shining brass bells and gave us each one. They were so big that little Philip Jr. needed two hands to hold them as Miss A taught us how to swoop our fist in a low arc to produce a chime. Sanders and I danced in carefree circles as the kids played their bell song and Miss A sang in a high clear voice. The sky began to spin above my head, so I collapsed onto the soft grass, pushing my chest and stomach to the clouds as I laughed. 

    All day we frolicked on her front lawn. The sounds of our delight attracted the neighbors to their windows like moths. Through the strips between curtains where the sunlight broke into dark houses, adults watched with anxious eyes. The parents especially would remember that day in Miss A’s front yard with the bubbles and the bells and the absolute elation of it all. Later, the parents would be sure to tell the police that Miss A dared to feed us sliced peaches and strawberries. The police would use all of this to build their case against Miss A, because who would be kind without an ulterior motive? 

    The following morning, when the six of us reported to the oak tree, every child had food in their bellies. For the first time in a long time, everyone’s parents had made breakfast. Usually, Sanders and I could make ourselves breakfast, and Annalise and Jason could work together to get milk and cereal. However, Philip Jr.’s stomach almost always growled so loudly in the morning that the other five of us would split off to hunt down some food for him. This morning, however, Clyde and I woke up to a plate of bacon and eggs for each of us. Our mother sat at the table with us, smoking her cigarette and drinking orange juice. We didn’t ask why as we gobbled down the deliciously warm food, but every time I looked up, our mom had a dreamy twinkle in her eye. Before she left for the day, she kissed us on the crown of our heads. I focused on the way the spot tingled for as long as I could. 

    Annalise and Jason reported that their mother made them toasted white bread and jam, complete with a kiss on the cheek each. Sanders’ eyes shimmered when he said his mom gave him a hug and his dad patted his back before work. What surprised us most was Philp Jr., who not only ate waffles for breakfast but received both a hug and a kiss from his mother. The little kids weren’t interested in questioning why this had all happened to us at the same time, but I knew it wasn’t a coincidence. 

    Later, during a game of hide and go seek, Sanders and I hid in a sweetly scented jasmine bush together. The spotted shadows from the flowers and leaves painted our faces.

    “I had a dream last night,” I whispered to Sanders. He was the only person who ever got to hear about my dreams.

    “Me too,” he whispered back. “It was about Miss A.”

    “Mine too.”

    “Did she fly in yours too?”

    “Yeah.”

    “Did she say anything to you?”

    “Yeah.”

    “What did she say?”

    “She said it’s going to be alright, I think.”

    “But how could she know that?” I asked. “It’s not up to her.”

    *

    In between the long hot days and endless evenings, the black asphalt road was off-limits because of all the cars returning to their houses. During this time, my mom and Sanders’ mom would stand in front of my house, with glasses of white wine balanced between their fingers, whispering to each other. They were upset about Miss A but didn’t have much to be really upset about so they invented gossip. Sanders and I listened as we pretended to build castles in the dirt.

    “I keep dreaming about that woman,” my mom muttered to Sanders’ mom. 

    “Sometimes when I’m alone in my house, I swear I’ll see her out of the corner of my eye, but it’s just my own reflection,” Sanders’ mom replied. 

    One night, when Clyde accidentally spilled orange juice all over the kitchen floor, our mom opened her mouth to scream as she normally would, but no noise came out. The veins in her neck bulged ripe and red as she strained to make a sound. Finally, she gave up and looked down at the juice pooling at her feet. Clyde and I stared at her, unsure what to do. Our mom surrendered and helped us clean up the mess in silence. Her voice returned with the rising sun. 

    A few days later, Annalise and Jason said that their mom, who sometimes stayed up all night ranting about demons or making them clean the entire house, had been falling into a deep sleep directly after dinner each night. They said they were able to sleep the whole night undisturbed, a rare event since their mother stopped taking her medication.

    The next day was as hot as the one before, like the sun wanted to show us her full power. Sanders played basketball with Clyde and Jason in the driveway. I laid in the grass and taught Annalise and Philip Jr. how to make dandelion crowns. By the end of the day, the sun had sufficiently zapped our energy, making us delirious and lethargic. Clyde missed a shot at the hoop, sending the basketball into the street. Without thinking, he chased after it, not noticing the SUV barrelling around the turn. I stood up and screamed as Clyde crouched down in the middle of the street. I wasn’t going to be fast enough. Just as the front bumper came within inches of my little brother’s head, the car stopped, as if crashing into an invisible wall. It flipped over my little brother’s head, who stared up at it with his jaw open wide. Landing several yards away, the car rolled three times before landing face up. Then the battered car sped away so fast it burned black streaks into the road. 

    I collapsed in the middle of the street and embraced my brother. Sanders was by my side. Clyde was wailing now, with snot and saliva running down his face. I squeezed him into my shoulder. Over the top of his head, I saw Miss A standing in her doorway. Her chest was heaving like she was crying too. I hugged Clyde closer. 

    My heart pounded for days after the phantom crash. I couldn’t stop seeing Clyde’s face, terror overtaking his innocence. Annalise and Jason confirmed after that Miss A had been standing in her front yard the whole time. Clyde was too young to understand how close his fate almost was to becoming another nameless hit and run in a neighborhood no one cared about. This was a miracle, and we were smart enough to keep it to ourselves. 

    Additional neighbors began to join my mom and Sanders’ mom for their evening sessions on the front porch to glare at Miss A’s house, like a flock of vultures waiting for an animal to die. The majority of the adults had never met Miss A, which only added to their suspicion. One old man accused Miss A of digging through his trash, but it was more likely raccoons. Philip Jr.’s dad claimed Miss A was staring at him through his window. He said that every time he ran outside to yell at her, she was nowhere to be found, but when he went inside again, she was back on the sidewalk, staring at him like a ghost. Philip Jr. later confirmed the story as true but claimed he wasn’t scared. The rest of the neighbors disregarded the story on the basis that Philip Sr. was a severe alcoholic. Regardless, confusion was swiftly channeled into a panic and consequently, a deep fear emerged. The drunken adults spread rumors amongst each other like a disease. Everyone worried about what would happen if their sins were brought to light. Her compassion equaled impending doom for these morally bankrupt souls. I wanted to protect Miss A, because I understood the danger of fools in agreement.

    Two days later, everything ended. In the morning, Sanders was the first one at the oak tree. When I asked him if he was ok, he looked up at me sadly to show me the dark purple bruise around his brilliant blue eye. I hugged him tight like I was trying to hold all the pain in one place. 

    “This isn’t the worst part,” Sanders whispered.

    We walked over to the worst part, which was Sanders’ dad’s truck. Every window was completely shattered. Not a single shard of glass remained attached to the car. The glittering fragments spread out around the car like a perfect halo. 

    “My dad called the police and said he saw Miss A break all his windows with a golf club,” Sanders told me. 

    “What really happened?” I asked. 

    Sanders sighed.

    “Dad came home, drunk or something,” Sanders started. “He started yelling at me, pushing me around. I ran to the front room, trying to escape, and that’s when he socked me.”

    I squeezed his hand. 

    “But the strangest thing,” Sanders continued. “With my good eye, I was looking through the front window. Right as he punched me, every window in his car exploded.”

    I shook my head. 

    “She’s strong,” I said. 

    That was when Annalise and Jason ran down the street yelling that a police car pulled up to Miss A’s house. 

    Days later, our mom hung up the phone and cussed at the ceiling. Somehow Miss A disappeared from her cell without a trace. An officer came to my house and asked if we knew where she might have escaped to or who might have helped her. Clyde and I just smiled sweetly and shook our heads, like the good children we were.

    December 5, 2024
    creative writing, Fiction, kids, magic, magical realism, original writing, short story

  • Poem: Heart of Gold

    Any jewler can tell you

    Gold is the softest metal

    Heavy nontheless

    I hold out my heart

    The children take it

    Bite so easily with their baby teeth

    “I thought it would be sweet”

    I am the opposite of cotton candy

    Give me your neck

    And I’ll weigh you down

    but never turn you green

    I can last forever

    Even when you break me

    It’s just two pieces

    Of a shiny thing

    October 28, 2023
    creative writing, growth, kids, love, magic, poem, Poetry

  • Poem: Just Love Him

    Just Love Him
    
    Hiding under his desk
    	Seven years old, slowest to grow in his whole class
    				On a lucky day he shows why he’s so bored in math
    				When others count on fingers, he’s breezing past
    Gray eyes staring into nothing/everything
    Does his mom know he needs a haircut
    Unsafe at recess, everyday
    Twisted shit, like titty twists
    Pushing, pinching, choking
    Melts in my lap like a baby, I forget he’s so small
    Breathing slow, eyes closed
    Heartbeat in the hollow of his neck
    Stroke his forehead slicked with sweat
    His teacher will try anything
    On her knees like she’s praying
    Sacrificing the momentum of the class
    To coax a single student back to his desk
    Doesn’t work, she calls support
    Its me and the psychologist
    She knew him back in kindergarten
    When grandpa belted him to bruises
    And twin sister scratched when no one was looking
    Which was often, because it was apparent at the first conference
    That his mother carried no sentiment.
    School blamed it all on her apathy 
    Condemned them to CPS and court ordered therapy 
    I ask what I’m supposed to do with this kid
    And the team says, “Just love him.”
    .
    Expert work avoider
    One mistake and he’s in the corner
    Worksheet crumpled on the floor
    He can’t hear what we’re saying anymore
    					Different kid soon as we’re outside
    					Not much of a consequence 
    					For his violent disruption
    					It can’t hurt to let him have a good time		
    Every reaction is a firecracker
    No logic lizard brain
    His teacher preaches patience
    Out of the few ideas, this ones the best
    As he does anything he can to escape
    This classroom is his cage
    I block the door
    He punches and screams,
    Tears up the room, comes apart at his seams
    					He softens in the wake of his hurricane
    Cleans up his mess without me saying a thing
    Organizes the books he threw on the floor
    When ready, he meets me quietly at the door.
    .
    Pushed over a desk, almost hit someone
    				In the hall, he wants to hug everyone
    Headbutted me in the hip in front of his class
                                     Kindergarten teacher’s sadness with him in her lap
    Screamed so loud I almost cried
    				We sit together in the hallway, silent and tired
    Banged his head on his desk on the last day of school
                                      Gap toothed smile and eyes like pools
    Threw a rock, it hit me in the head
    Said he didn’t remember doing it
    				We have to believe him, but he could be lying
    				This is his primal key to surviving
    All of it interpreted as a misunderstanding of right and wrong
    Being abused by all the people you love can do that to someone
    I know he’s special because to be so broken 
    Requires an incredible depth of emotion
    He doesn’t have words for the things he feels
    Just the dark blue vein in his forehead
    And a vacant look he wears like a shield
    The school doesn’t know how to sustain him
    They have to send him away
    Despite it being necessary
    My heart will break on his last day
    Because I carved out a space
    For a boy alone in the world
    And at the same time, I was finally cured
    Of this heart I carry around like a ball and chain
    He gave it a home within his own pain 
    All the grace I’ve been cultivating
    Was relieved to a weary soul wholly deserving
    
    	
    
    
    
    
    
    
    
    June 1, 2023
    creative writing, educator, elementary education, kids, original writing, poem, Poetry, special ed

  • Fiction: Moon Kids

    Moon Kids

    Moshe knew that he was different from the rest of his fourth grade class, but he never understood why. For the first five years of his life, he didn’t speak. His parents frantically took him to doctors and speech specialists, but Moshe just stared at them blankly as they begged him to produce sounds. When he finally did speak, he walked into the kitchen where his mother was chopping vegetables, and asked where his The Little Mermaid DVD was. The cutting board crashed to the ground before his mother turned around and realized it was her own son speaking to her in perfect sentences, as if he had done so every day of his life. From then on, he spoke as normally as any other five year old. 

    In school Moshe wondered how everyone else in his class already knew how to read and write, or to raise their hand when they needed help. Usually, Moshe sat quietly at his desk and thought about mermaids or dresses until his teacher realized he hadn’t started the assignment with the rest of the class. Over time, Moshe’s teachers and classmates realized that he wouldn’t start unless someone helped him. Whoever was sitting nearby would try to help, but when Moshe wouldn’t pick up the pencil, his classmate ended up writing the work out for him. Moshe didn’t really see the point of school. He wanted to be a mermaid anyway, and mermaids didn’t need to read or write. All they did was sing, and Moshe’s mother assured him he had a lovely singing voice. 

    Even though Moshe’s classmates were all nice to him, no one wanted to play with him on the playground or have playdates on the weekend. None of Moshe’s classmates particularly interested him either, but sometimes when he saw them laughing he felt like he had no idea how to be like them. There was a whole world in his head, but everyone else seemed to exist somewhere else. 

    During the second week of fourth grade, on perhaps the hottest day of the entire year, the door to Moshe’s classroom burst open, awakening the fourth graders from their sleepy midday haze. A kid with spiky blonde hair, bright blue eyes and a big smile waltzed in with the school secretary trudging behind him. Before the secretary could open her mouth, the kid announced, “I am Egan. I am nine years old and I hate school.”

    “Thank you for sharing, Egan,” the teacher said, exchanging a knowing look with the school secretary. 

    Moshe had never heard someone say they hated school. He didn’t know he was allowed to hate school. 

    Egan wasted no time in transforming the once peaceful class into his stage. At first, the kids thought it was funny when he called out in the middle of a lesson that he was bored. Eventually, the rest of the class joined the teacher in scolding him. Egan enjoyed the attention, the way everyone’s face spun to him, all those eyes like spotlights. He liked the way his name chorused through the classroom, and even though everyone thought they were responsible for stopping him, only Egan decided when he was ready to quit. Moshe observed Egan in awe. All Moshe knew was that he didn’t like being at school all day, he never understood how his classmates did it so easily, but he had no clue what he would rather do instead. Egan always seemed to know exactly what he wanted to do, and he did it no matter what. 

    Some days all Egan wanted to do was read his book, but his classmates called him out the second he started flipping the pages under his desk. Things he saw his classmates let each other get away with, like sneaking snacks out of their backpack or doodling when they were supposed to be paying attention, were no exception for Egan. Egan realized he was losing control. His entire class hated him. That wasn’t what he had meant to do at all.

    There was only one person in the whole class who never shouted Egan’s name, never told him to do his work or stop messing around, never tattled on him or watched for him to break a rule. Moshe hadn’t said a word to Egan, but Egan felt drawn to him, the way gravity pulls everything in the universe into its proper place.

    “What book are you reading?” Egan asked Moshe one day during independent reading time. 

    “I can’t read,” Moshe replied, staring at his shoes.

    “Oh! I love reading. Books are great,” Egan said.

    Moshe shrugged.

    “Well, I could read to you if you want,” Egan offered. “This book is about pirates and ghosts. It’s really good. I can tell you what’s happened so far.”

    Moshe looked up at Egan’s pale round face beaming at him with blue eyes so bright they shone like gemstones. Egan sat down next to Moshe, pressing his shoulder against him. Moshe was surprised by how warm Egan’s arm was against his. He wasn’t used to anyone besides his family touching him, even though he saw his classmates hug each other all the time. Like they were sharing a secret, Egan told Moshe the story so far, about Jack Sparrow and the curse of the Black Pearl. Moshe was immediately entranced. He asked Egan what kind of dress Elizabeth Swan would wear, and they spent several minutes sketching out various ideas for her royal gowns. Then, in a quiet voice, Egan read into Moshe’s ear. For once, Moshe didn’t float away into his day dreams. He watched the entire story unfold in Egan’s words, as vivid in his mind as if he were watching it happen in front of him. 

    The rest of the week, Egan seized every opportunity to sit next to Moshe. He still disrupted the class and irritated his classmates, as if it were a series of bad habits he couldn’t break, but when he was with Moshe, he was almost always calm. Egan made Moshe giggle, a noise most of his classmates had never heard before. Egan brought in his favorite comic books, and Moshe loved how he could see a whole story from pictures. It was Egan’s idea to make their own comic book together. Egan wrote the words and Moshe drew the pictures. On the playground, whenever Egan fell down, Moshe was there holding out his hand. When they needed to partner up in class, neither boy had to look around the room helplessly to see which classmate would tolerate them that day. For the first time in his life, Moshe didn’t feel like he was alone on his own planet. 

    “Moshe, do you want to be my best friend?” Egan asked one day on the playground.

    Moshe’s face lit up.

    “Yes! I’ve never had a best friend before,” Moshe said.

    “Me neither,” Egan said. “Maybe we can have a sleepover at my place sometime.”

    Some students nearby overheard the conversation and the news spread like wildfire. Their teacher rearranged the seating chart so that they could sit together, which benefited the entire class as Egan more often only needed Moshe’s attention. Moshe began looking forward to his days alongside his wild best friend instead of dreading the boring grind of school. 

    Even though Egan’s behavior calmed down somewhat, his classmates did not forgive nor forget what he was capable of. While the girls ignored Egan most of the time, the coldest thing they could think to do, the boys intentionally taunted him as much as they could get away with. They hid his books and claimed they were trying to help him focus better in class. They started arguments that raised Egan’s voice to a screech and resulted in the teacher sending him out of the room. Everyone watched Egan like a hawk hunting a mouse, waiting for him to slip up so they could punish him. Their disdain did nothing to discourage Egan, something Moshe admired. 

    One day, when the warm air was just beginning to fade to fall’s crisp chill, Egan had an idea to climb the fence on the corner of the playground so that he could grab a tree branch for him and Moshe. 

    “We could build our own clubhouse! Then no one will find us. We just need some wood,” Egan said.

    Moshe knew it was against the rules to climb the fence, but he didn’t say anything. Instead he dutifully stood guard as Egan shoved his toes into the gaps of the chain link. 

    Egan was halfway up the fence when one of the more popular fourth grade boys, Ryan, ran over. 

    “You can’t do that!” Ryan exclaimed.

    “Mind your business!” Egan hollered back.

    “You have to get down, that’s not allowed,” Ryan insisted, crossing his arms. 

    Moshe glanced nervously at the recess teacher talking with a group of girls across the field. 

    “Leave me alone,” Egan spat, reaching his hand up for the next link.

    “Get off the fence, Egan,” Ryan commanded.

    Moshe barely turned around in time to see Egan leaping off the fence and landing on top of Ryan, gripping his neck. Ryan screamed and tried to push Egan away. A group of kids circled around them, chanting, “Fight! Fight! Fight!” Others were yelling at them to stop. Moshe saw Egan’s eyes open wide and unblinking. His mouth was stretched into something like a smile, baring his teeth like a dog before the bite. The teacher ran over and screamed at them to stop but everyone knew Egan wouldn’t listen. Moshe didn’t know that if the teacher restrained Egan it could result in a lawsuit, all he knew was that the teacher wasn’t going to do anything, so he reached in and put his arms around his best friend. Egan flailed until he realized it was Moshe who was holding him. 

    Ryan sprinted away, surrounded by a crowd of kids all wanting to know what happened. Moshe held Egan, who was still wearing that crazed look on his face and breathing hard. Egan struggled to break free again, reaching his arms out in Ryan’s direction until the teacher grabbed his arm and led him to the principal’s office, leaving Moshe alone on the playground. Moshe didn’t realize he was sitting by himself in the grass, slowly rocking back and forth, until his teacher placed a hand on his back and led him inside. 

    Moshe didn’t see Egan until it was almost the end of the day, when Moshe was pulled from class to work with the Learning Center teacher on his reading. As he walked down the hallway, Egan and the principal were walking back to class. Moshe hung his head, unable to look at Egan.

    “Moshe? Are we still friends?” Egan asked carefully as they passed by each other with their respective adults.

    Moshe shook his head and kept walking. Egan’s shoulders fell and he hung his head too. The Learning Center teacher asked Moshe if he wanted to talk about it, but Moshe shook his head again. He just wanted the day to be over. After the lesson, Egan was waiting expectantly for him in class. On Moshe’s desk was a picture of two boys, one with spiky blonde hair and blue eyes, the other with curly brown hair and glasses. The letters “BFF” were written at the top, which Egan had once told Moshe meant “best friends forever.” 

    “I’m sorry Moshe. I really am,” Egan said in a low voice, searching Moshe’s face. “I just go crazy sometimes. I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings. I’m really, really sorry. I’ll make it up to you, I promise.”

    Moshe traced the letters in the picture. Egan was the only real friend he’d ever had. 

    “Do you forgive me Moshe? Can we still be friends, please?” Egan begged.

    Moshe nodded. Egan squeezed him tight until Moshe released a tiny smile. 

    “Thank you Moshe. You’re the best friend ever,” Egan said. 

    The rest of the class was working on a computer program that Moshe never got the hang of, so he watched over Egan’s shoulder as Egan played the game his own way. The pair were quiet so the teacher didn’t snap at them to get on task, and Moshe felt relaxed for the rest of the afternoon, giggling at Egan’s jokes in their secret corner of the universe.

    After the fight, the fourth grade class decided that Egan was their enemy. No one knew when a normal day would turn into a nightmare, except Moshe. Some days were calm and passed with little more than Egan’s usual disruptive defiance. Some days there were storm clouds circling Egan’s head, and Moshe seemed to be the only one who could see them. On those days, Moshe chose to walk back and forth along the back of the playground by himself as Egan chased and attacked his classmates. Moshe didn’t try to get involved anymore, even though he knew he was the only one who could stop Egan. The storm clouds were becoming a permanent fixture above Egan’s head, some days darker than others. On a day when the clouds weren’t so dark, Egan sat next to Moshe on the edge of the playground.

    “The principal said I’m going to get kicked out of school soon,” Egan said quietly.

    “Why?” Moshe asked.

    “I don’t know. Everyone here hates me, they want me gone,” Egan explained.

    “I don’t hate you,” Moshe said.

    “We need to get out of here, Moshe. You and me, we don’t belong in a place like this. It’s no good for us,” Egan said.

    “Where could we go?” Moshe asked.

    Egan looked up into the clear blue sky. Moshe followed his gaze up to the faint white moon, like a faded dime at the top of the sky. 

    “I read a book about the moon,” Egan said. “We should go there. That’s where we belong.”

    “There’s no air on the moon. We’ll die,” Moshe responded, looking back down at the earth. 

    Egan kept his neck craned up. 

    “There’s a secret door that lets you inside the moon. That’s where all the kids like us live. We can go there and be happy and never have to see any of these dumb people again,” Egan explained. 

    Moshe thought about this idea. The moon seemed like a nice place if everyone there was like him.

    “How will we get there?” Moshe asked.

    “Leave that to me. I’ve been wishing on a star every night for weeks,” Egan assured him. “We’re going to get out of here, Moshe.”

    That night, as Moshe sat on his bed holding his favorite doll, the one with long red hair and a green dress, he heard a tap at his window. Wearing his teddy bear footie pajamas, Moshe crept towards the window and peeked out of the curtain. He was shocked to see his best friend’s face smiling ear to ear. Moshe pushed his window open and realized Egan was inside a small spaceship, no bigger than his mom’s minivan. 

    “I told you! Didn’t I tell you!” Egan cheered.

    “What is this?” Moshe asked, clutching his doll.

    “It’s a spaceship from the moon kids. They heard my wish! Get in, we’re going to the moon!” Egan said, holding out his hand.

    Moshe glanced warily at the spaceship. Everything looked clean and new, with two seats at the front facing a huge windshield. A TV hung on one of the padded walls with two kid sized space suits hanging below it. 

    “Let me grab some things,” Moshe said. 

    He emptied his school backpack on the floor and filled it with his favorite doll, his treasured The Little Mermaid DVD, and his glasses case. Egan helped him climb through the window and into the spaceship. 

    The door to the spaceship closed behind him, but nothing else happened. 

    “How do we get it to go?” Moshe asked.

    “I don’t know. When I got in it just went to your house, I didn’t have to do anything,” Egan said. 

    Suddenly the TV flickered on, displaying a sentence in bright orange letters.

    “What does it say?” Moshe asked.

    “‘What makes you special will take you far,’” Egan read. “What does that mean?”

    Moshe repeated the phrase to himself. 

    “Oh! I know!” Moshe exclaimed and then belted out the chorus of “Part of Your World” from The Little Mermaid movie. 

    Immediately, the spaceship jolted and shuddered, lifting away from Moshe’s bedroom window. Egan, who had never heard Moshe sing before, gaped in awe.

    “Keep singing!” Egan shouted.

    “Wanderin’ free, wish I could be,” Moshe sang at the top of his lungs. “Part of your wooorrrld!”

    “Yes! Yes!” Egan shouted as the spaceship soared over the neighborhoods towards the deep black sky. 

    The message on the TV transformed into a new phrase with green letters.

    “It says to take a seat and enjoy the ride,” Egan said. “We did it!”

    Smiling ear to ear, Egan and Moshe sank into the plush chairs facing the enormous windshield. They watched home disappear below them, felt their stomachs float as they fled gravity’s grasp. The windshield washed white and gray as they soared through the clouds until all they could see was black emptiness and a perfect white circle in the distance. Moshe dozed off with the gentle rocking of the spaceship. He dreamed he was emerging from the ocean with legs for the first time. On the shore he kept trying to stand up but couldn’t. He awoke to Egan reading a message on the TV screen.

    “It says we should put on our space suits,” Egan said. 

    Egan and Moshe helped each other put the heavy suits over their pajamas. Miraculously, both suits were a perfect fit. The TV blinked again.

    “It says to prepare for landing!” Egan squealed. Moshe slid his backpack onto his shoulders and clipped the chest strap securely.

    Hardly able to contain their excitement, the boys vibrated with anticipation in their chairs. Moshe had never left his hometown, and now he was on the moon with his best friend! They squeezed their eyes shut as the cratered surface of the moon approached, but the spaceship landed delicately with little more than a shake. Moshe was afraid to open his eyes until he felt Egan squeezing his hand.

    “We’re here Moshe. We’re on the moon,” Egan whispered, handing Moshe his helmet. 

    Moshe screwed his helmet onto his suit and followed Egan out the open doors. As soon as Egan stepped out of the spaceship, he leapt like he had wings. He soared several yards away from the ship, whooping and laughing the whole way.

    “You gotta try this Moshe!” he yelled. 

    Egan’s voice exploded in Moshe’s ear through a small speaker in his helmet.

    “I can hear you! You’re too loud!” Moshe yelled back.

    “Now you’re too loud!” Egan yelled back. “Just jump!”

    “Ok! Stop yelling,” Moshe said before stepping his foot out of the spaceship. For some reason, he still expected to be pulled down to the ground. He had been the exception for everything he had ever known, why would gravity be any different? 

    Instead, Moshe floated. With a delighted giggle, he flailed his limbs and made his way towards Egan. As light as a feather, Moshe landed next to his best friend. The two chased each other in slow motion along the craters, bouncing with exaggerated leaps. They had never felt so free, like outer space was welcoming them. Neither boy could stop smiling. Eventually, they exhausted themselves and rested beside the spaceship.

    “So what now?” Moshe asked.

    “I read in a book there’s a trap door somewhere out here,” Egan explained. “It will lead us to the moon kids.”

    “Well where is it?” Moshe asked, looking around.

    “It’s on the dark side,” Egan said. 

    Moshe gulped. 

    “C’mon, let’s go together,” Egan said, getting up. Moshe followed.

    The boys leapt over craters until they could no longer see Earth or their spaceship looming over their shoulder. The dark side of the moon wasn’t dark at all, except for the endless blackness opening all around them. It was eerily quiet and suspiciously peaceful. Moshe couldn’t imagine children living in a place like this, surely he would have heard them by now. Suddenly, the silence was broken when Egan landed with a thud. The boys barely registered the perfect square door on the ground before it flew open. Out of the hatch popped a little girl who looked just like any girl on Earth except her skin was electric blue and her eyes glowed like neon lights. Her silver jumpsuit sparkled despite the lack of light. 

    “Heroes from Earth, are you able to understand my language?” she asked. 

    “Yes,” Egan said.

    “Follow me,” she instructed. 

    Without hesitation, Egan and Moshe followed the girl through the square hatch. Beneath the surface of the moon, they no longer enjoyed the perks of antigravity. The girl began explaining how her people had created artificial gravity, but the boys were too busy taking in their surroundings. At first they couldn’t see anything, but as their eyes adjusted they realized they were standing at the top of a staircase high above a thriving city of blue people. Cone shaped buildings arranged in four rings guided the flow of the city in perfect circles. The inside of the moon domed overhead, glowing bright on one side so there was no centralized light source, just one big wall of ethereal white. 

    “This is awesome,” Egan whispered. 

    “You can take your helmets off. There is oxygen in here,” the girl said. 

    Reluctantly, Moshe and Egan removed their helmets, but to their relief, found they could breathe. The three kids descended the long staircase towards the city. 

    “Where are we going?” Egan asked.

    “We call it the Chamber of Infinite Wisdom, but on Earth I believe it’s called a library,” the girl said.

    Egan and Moshe smiled at each other. The library was the only part of school where they ever felt peace. 

    “What’s your name?” Moshe asked.

    “You may call me Orisa,” she answered. “I know your names already. We’ve been watching you for a long time.”

    “Why?” both boys asked in unison.

    Orisa stopped and turned around. Her green eyes shone like stars.

    “We have been studying the Earth kids for a very long time and found that you two see the world differently from them all. When we discovered that you two were best friends, we knew you could help us,” Orisa explained.

    “Help you with what?” Egan asked.

    “I can’t say out here. Everything will be explained in the Chamber of Infinite Wisdom.”

    The staircase ended at the base of a huge amethyst cone building. Orisa placed her hand on the smooth surface and a door opened. She led the boys down a dark narrow hallway to a huge room with more books than Egan or Moshe could have ever fathomed to exist. Neat shelves of books curved with the walls of the building and stretched all the way up to the pointed ceiling, creating a circular labyrinth. 

    “This is amazing,” Egan whispered under his breath. Moshe could only nod. For the first time in his life, he wished he knew how to read. 

    At the center of the maze of bookshelves was a round table at which sat three more blue kids. They wore silver robes made out of the same material as Orisa’s jumpsuit. The blue boy in the middle had orange eyes so bright it was hard to look directly at him. 

    “Egan and Moshe, I am Terzar. This is Octavo and Geldie. We are The Counsel,” the blue kid with orange eyes boomed in a surprisingly deep voice. “Welcome to the Moon. We are in desperate need of your assistance.”

    “Our portal has closed,” Octavo said. Three pink crystals glittered on his forehead matching his glowing pink eyes. 

    “Without the portal, we are unable to venture to other planets within the galaxy to gather our necessary provisions,” Geldie said. Thin silver lines moved and sparkled across his blue face like comet trails. His eyes glimmered silver when he talked and faded to gray when he was silent. 

    “The portal is necessary for maintaining intergalactic relationships, but more importantly our Moon Ambassadors will not be able to return until the portal is reopened,” Terzar explained. “If anyone enters a portal on another planet in an attempt to re enter through this one, they will be caught in the void of the space time continuum, and without swift action, they could be lost forever.”

    Egan and Moshe didn’t understand most of the vocabulary being used, but they understood the gist: this was an emergency. 

    “How did the portal close?” Egan asked.

    “It is a very rare occurrence that a portal closes, so few understand the phenomenon,” Geldie said. “This portal closed right before my eyes, and this was left in its place.”

    Geldie lifted his hand and the center of the table opened in a perfect circle. From the circle rose hundreds of crystals levitating in the air in a tight pattern like a chandelier.

    “These crystals are from the planet Neptune. We believe it to be some sort of code. Every mathematician, scientist, philosopher, teacher and scholar on the moon has attempted to crack this code but no one has succeeded. Our resources are very limited and dwindling quickly. You are our last hope,” Geldie explained.

    “How are we supposed to crack a code of crystals? Isn’t a code supposed to be something written down with symbols and numbers or something?” Egan asked.

    “Egan, when you were five years old, you escaped from your school classroom a total of eleven times. When most of your peers were learning how to write their names, you memorized the schedules of the employees at your school and strategized multiple escape routes. You have outsmarted dozens of trained adults on your planet before you have even lived a decade,” Terzar said.

    “I’ve never done anything like that. I can’t even read,” Moshe huffed.

    “I have read every book in this Chamber of Infinite Wisdom, but none of them enabled me to master aesthetics the way you have, Moshe. The importance of beautiful things is being quickly forgotten on your planet, but it is the beautiful things that connect the heart to the soul. Your understanding of colors, shapes and patterns will allow you to create much needed loveliness in the universe,” Terzar said. 

    Moshe puffed up his chest, even though he didn’t know what the word ‘aesthetics’ meant, no one had ever given him such a high compliment. He had always loved pretty things, but he never knew it was so necessary. 

    “We will crack this code and get your portal open,” Egan promised.

    “We will leave you to your work,” Terzar said. Everyone left and Egan and Moshe were alone with the levitating crystals. 

    “How are we going to crack this code?” Moshe wondered.

    “I don’t know. Have you ever cracked a code before?” Egan asked.

    Moshe shook his head.

    “Me neither,” Egan said. “Let’s get started.”

     The crystals were more dazzling than anything either boy had seen on earth. All different shapes and sizes, each emanating a soft rainbow aura.  Egan and Moshe circled around the table, trying to see if different viewpoints would enlighten them. 

    “I don’t know what this is supposed to mean. Do you have any idea?” Egan asked.

    “I can’t even read a regular book, I don’t know how I’m supposed to crack this code,” Moshe muttered. He was annoyed at the aliens for dragging him all this way just to do something he couldn’t do. 

    Egan squatted on top of the table squinting at the crystal configuration. Moshe crossed his arms and scoffed.

    “What?” Egan asked.

    “They expect us to read it when the crystals aren’t even in the right order,” Moshe answered, even more annoyed now.

    “What do you mean? What order?” 

    Moshe threw his hands up, exasperated. 

    “Well if they would just put them right!” he huffed, climbing onto the table.

    Moshe reached his hands into the helix and began rearranging the sparkling rocks. The crystals hung mid-air as if secured in an invisible spider web, but when Moshe’s fingers touched the crystals, blue sparks ignited and the crystal held onto him like velcro. Wherever Moshe placed a crystal, it stayed and shone rainbow prisms in every direction. 

    “There! See, that looks way better,” Moshe said.

    Egan gaped at the new configuration before him. Moshe had laid all of the crystals on a flat plane in a Fibonacci-sequence mandala, the pattern repeating itself outwards in perfect symmetry. The rainbow prisms overlapped creating concentrated pools of perfect color.

    No sooner had Egan recovered from his rare loss of words that the entire mandala filled with incredibly bright rainbow light, pulsing with an intense heat. Egan and Moshe felt a physical tug towards the light and each took an involuntary step forward. 

    “What’s happening?” Egan screamed.

    “I don’t know! What’s the code? What’s the code!” Moshe screeched as the boys tumbled after each other into the open pool of light swirling at the center of the table. 

    For a moment, they were blinded and the air left their lungs. Every sense was overwhelmed beyond interpretation. It took several moments before they realized they weren’t standing on anything. They fought to regain their sense of vision, and as their eyes adjusted, they saw dark shapes approaching them.

    “Are you ok?” one of the shapes asked.

    Egan was the first to realize that these shapes were moon kids like Orisa. Four blue kids blinked their bright eyes at Egan and Moshe. 

    “Where are we?” Egan asked.

    “You’re in between,” one of the kids said. 

    Moshe looked around. Everything was hazy, like they were standing in a cloud. There were no distinct features of the area around them, not even a flat surface to stand on or a horizon between ground and sky. Colors changed fluidly, like they were inside a rainbow. Moshe couldn’t even pinpoint what color he was surrounded by before the next one began to leak into the space around him. 

    “Why are you all here?” Moshe asked.

    “We were trying to go through the portal but we got stuck here,” the same kid answered. 

    “How do we get out?” Moshe asked, an edge of panic creeping into his voice.

    The kids all shrugged.

    “Can we look around?” Egan asked.

    “It’s all like this, there is nowhere to go,” another kid said. 

    Egan shook his head. 

    “No, there has to be something. Let’s all split up and look in different directions,” Egan declared. 

    Moshe and Egan moved their feet like they were walking, even though they weren’t standing on a solid surface. They felt a tug similar to the one emitted by the crystal code. Eventually, the kids disappeared behind them into the pink and orange haze. After some time, perhaps minutes, perhaps hours, an incredibly bright glowing orb appeared, the size of a hula-hoop, so luminous the boys held up their hands and squinted between their fingers. Around the orb were all the moon kids. 

    “What is this?” one moon kid asked. 

    No one could answer. The orb flickered suddenly and then shrunk inwards slightly. As Moshe stared into the light, he felt something warm in his chest and he saw his mother’s face in the orb. An overwhelming sense of longing washed over him as he realized how far away he was from his family. Moshe looked to Egan. Egan was staring at the orb, mesmerized.

    “What do you see?” Moshe whispered to him.

    “I see myself, laughing, happy, free,” Egan murmured.

    The orb shrunk inwards again. With every contraction, all the kids were pulled towards it a little more. 

    “I don’t think it’s supposed to be shrinking,” Egan said finally.

    The other kids broke their gaze away from the orb to look at Egan.

    “I think it needs something,” Egan continued.

    “We don’t have anything,” one kid said.

    The orb shuddered and shrunk again. Moshe unzipped his backpack and pulled out his favorite doll, the one with the red hair and emerald green dress. He kissed the doll’s face and then without hesitation, tossed it into the light. All of the kids, including Egan, gasped.

    The orb swallowed the doll and then grew brighter, stretching beams of light out like eager hands. Elation and satisfaction filled Moshe, the same feeling as when he first unboxes a doll, as if he hadn’t just given one away. Just as soon as the sensation filled him completely, the orb contracted once more and the feeling evaporated.

    “What was that?” Egan asked. “That was incredible. Did anyone else feel that?” 

    The other kids nodded. 

    “Why? Why did we all feel like that when the light got bright?” one of the moon kids asked.

    The orb now showed him a vision of pages in a book. However, the incoherent scribbles didn’t infuriate him, instead he could visualize the meaning conveyed by the words. 

    “Because it wants something really good, I think,” Moshe said. “Something important.”

    “Something important?” Egan said, grinning from ear to ear.

    Moshe turned to look at him and recognized the mischievous expression with horror.

    “Egan, no. That’s not what I meant,” Moshe pleaded.

    “No, I think you’re right. That would make sense, whatever this is, my guess is that it needs something pretty awesome to eat,” Egan reasoned, his blue eyes shining. “Wherever this takes me, it’s where I belong, I’m sure of that.”

    Before Moshe or any of the moon kids could stop him, Egan flung himself into the light. The orb swallowed him and then burst with a blinding bright wave of heat. Every cell in Moshe’s body felt compressed through a needle, then for a fraction of a moment, there was nothing at all. With a smack painful enough to remind him of his own existence, Moshe landed hard on his face on a flat surface. He had never been so grateful to taste his blood.

    “Moshe! Moshe! Where’s Egan? What happened? Are you ok?” 

    Moshe heard Orisa’s voice before he was able to open his eyes and focus. Eventually, he lifted his throbbing head and looked around. He was back in the Chamber of Infinite Wisdom, laying on the table where the crystals had been, except now the table was one solid surface without the opening in the middle. The four other moon kids lay on the table around him, slowly waking up. Orisa’s glowing green eyes watched over him. Egan was nowhere to be found.

    “Moshe! You’re ok! You’re safe, it’s ok!” Orisa cried. 

    Moshe didn’t realize he was rocking his body wildly until he felt Orisa’s warm arms around him. He relaxed into her embrace and started to cry. One by one, each of the moon kids joined the hug. Despite his confused grief, Moshe had never felt so safe. 

    After the Counsel heard Moshe’s full story, they flew around the library, pulling heavy books off the shelves and bringing them back to the table to pour through the pages. Moshe sat very still next to Orisa as the Counsel murmured softly to each other and pointed at various pages in their books. Eventually, Terzar came over to Moshe and placed a small blue hand on his shoulder.

    “Egan’s sacrifice was not in vain,” Terzar said.

    “What happened to him? Where is he?” Moshe asked.

    “That light orb you described was, to the best of our knowledge, the Entropic Source for our breadth of the Universe,” Terzar explained.

    Moshe blinked at him blankly.

    “Our Universe runs on chaos, randomness, entropy,” Terzar tried again. “But that energy is not infinite, in fact, had Egan not sacrificed himself at the very moment he did, the entire Universe could have contracted into itself. Time would have reversed backwards until the very beginning, and everything we’ve ever known would disappear as if it never existed.”

    “So he’s gone?” 

    “Not necessarily. As you may have guessed, not just anyone could have satisfied the needs of the Entropic Source, but the magnitude of energy that your friend provided has not been absorbed in such a great quantity in a very long time.”

    “So where is he?” 

    “He’s here, with us,” Terzar said. “He is the light that shines through the moon. He is the feeling in your chest before you do something brave. He is the flow of time through the Universe itself.”

    “I don’t understand.”

    “Moshe, what I think Terzar is trying to say is that Egan may not be here in the same way as before, but he’s still here,” Orisa tried. 

    Moshe nodded. He wanted to scream and cry, deny everything Terzar said and demand he find a way for Egan to come back, but instead he said, “I’m ready to go home now.”

    “Moshe,” Geldie said, stepping forward, his silver eyes soft. “Thank you. You have saved us all.”

    Orisa prepared the return rocket, an egg shaped vessel with only enough space inside for a bean bag seat. Moshe curled into a ball in the seat. The four moon kids, the Counsel and Orisa crowded around the entrance to the rocket. Sixteen glowing eyes of all different colors gazed at him with dazzling luminescence, seemingly brighter than before but Moshe was too tired to be sure. Afraid if he opened his mouth he would never be able to stop whatever wail might escape, Moshe raised his hand and waved. The eight moon kids waved back. Then the door of the rocket closed, and in less than sixty seconds, Moshe was soaring through space. He drifted off into a deep dreamless sleep.

    In the morning, Moshe awoke in his bed, in his footie pajamas, tucked in with the covers to his chin. He didn’t remember arriving home the night before. His mother poked her head in his bedroom to make sure he was awake and told him breakfast was ready downstairs. Moshe was usually quiet, so no one thought to ask if anything was wrong. At school, the entire fourth grade was buzzing with the news that Egan had transferred to another elementary school. No one asked Moshe how he felt about it, and Moshe didn’t say anything to anyone. For a whole week he didn’t speak at all. His teacher noticed his silence, but under the circumstances, didn’t push him. 

    When Moshe finally spoke, it was to a classmate he had known since kindergarten, who had always been a bit odd. The girl sat on the edge of the playground, playing with leaves and sticks on the ground. 

    “Look at the moon,” Moshe said, pointing up at the clean crescent, as clear as if it were a white curve of paint on a blue canvas.  

    “I love the moon,” she said, smiling. “The moon makes me feel less alone.”

    “Me too,” Moshe said.

    “Do you want to play with me? I’m making fairy houses,” she offered.

    “Fairy houses? With sticks and leaves? The fairies need more than that,” Moshe scoffed, smiling. “We need something pretty for them, like flowers.”

    “Ooo good idea!” the girl agreed. 

    Together they set off to pick flowers along the fence, and Moshe began to feel a little bit better. 

    April 25, 2023
    autism, creative writing, Fiction, kids, magic, original writing, short story

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